just a little from my personal blog. Thanks for reading! 🙂
something from my personal side… Happy New Year!
Thank you for taking time out to read! Cheers! 🙂
It’s been a while since I have sat down and been able to think about writing something in my professional blog… heck it’s been a month since I posted in my personal blog as well! Things… have been crazy I suppose is a good adjective for what August was. That’s probably not the greatest of reasons… but… maybe after I attempt to explain in my ramblings… you will accept my craziness as a decent excuse?
So… let’s see… towards the end of July (as you may have read in a previous post) I gained a new JOB #2! I am still happily working away at On The Fringe hair studio and spa in Vancouver, Washington and I cannot say enough great things about my new Job #2! It was definitely the best choice for me and I have no regrets with my decision with quitting my threading job at the mall for this position. Life certainly throws you curve balls at moments when you aren’t quite sure if you should go left or right… if you should lead or stay in the crowd… you just truly have to follow that gut instinct and I did… and I am so pleased that I did! Working at this salon has made my desire and passion for my career come back and a new light has awakened with me! I am regretful that I allowed my job at the mall to darken my path even for a few moments let along months… before I finally was able to get away!
I am happily fitting in well with the staff and building a great clientele base. I have serviced several of the stylists clients as well as many of my previous clients from the mall have slowly started to find me at my new location… in fact a few that either lost my contact details or they weren’t able to learn about my departure until after I was gone still managed to get my details after calling and bugging a few of the employees at the KIOSK until they finally broke and either got told exactly where to go to find me or they were given my contact details to reach me directly! I must admit… it’s a nice feeling knowing I made that much of an impact on someone that they were willing to go that far to still want to keep using me! It does make me feel important and special! Definitely puts a little swagger in my step at moments! LOL!!
So my professional part of me is starting to get better… each and every day I am at that place and in Woodland at the local salon I am feeling more in touch with my career and happier… more the way it felt when I first started! It is amazing when someone or something can place such a horrible weight on your shoulders that you start to question why… I am glad I was able to get away from said job and moved onto something bigger, better and a place I can definitely expand my proverbial wings!
My new boss, Tina is amazing… she really seems real and has taken me under her wing and helped me build a good start to my clientele… her clients seem to really like my work and the threading has given me a nice niche in the Esthetics world… something she can brag about and talk up that isn’t available hardly anyplace else around!!
Things are great professionally…. personally… hahahaha… that’s another thing. 😦
I have learned much about myself in the past 4 months since a significant change occurred and I am learning why now I can truly appreciate said break… it wasn’t what I wanted or desired. But, at the end of the day, I do understand and I hope he will always know my belief will never change. I understand the rock and a hard place we were and are within… it’s not a fair position we were placed within… but… for now, we are being who we need to be and that is what is important… we have to take care of ourselves and just believe…. and know in our hearts what will pass shall pass and all good things aren’t necessarily ever over, they just change and get better… eventually…. or not? 😉 I just know without said persons support, wisdom and comfort and the big pushes made with me… I’m not quite sure I’d be where I am or believe what I sincerely do believe! I am a product of my environment and what I have experienced, felt, touched, tasted and I am forever grateful for every single good, or bad thing that has came into my life… these things have helped to create the fantastic woman I am right now! And the even better woman I will develop into as the years come to pass.
Turning 40 was definitely something I am happy about… I wasn’t sure what to think and feel when that number approached me back in May, but, I can attest that I am happy being 40. I am even happier that most don’t even think i appear 40… most seem to guess around 35 and that’s more then okay with me! Anytime I appear younger is great! Which means I am doing something right… I am happy with myself and loving me.
This summer… the summer of 2012 was a pivotal change for me… for my professional life as well as my personal life. I have seen and experienced much in my 40 years…. and I am grateful for each experience. Good or bad, liking them or not at the time… they have all molded me into ME. That being said… I do not think personally or professionally I would be where I am right now if it weren’t for a few amazing people that helped me create the ME I am right now… and I want to thank them all…
You all are so incredibly important to me and my successes… when I have failed you have been there encouraging me and when I succeeded you were the people that I thought about first and wanted nothing more then to share my success with most of all. There is one extremely special individual that I was not able to share this with… my successes that is… yet. But, time seems to have a great way of showing me that anything is possible… and I think just as everything serves a time, place and need… I will have that day… until then, I am and forever remaining on my path of greatness I have set for myself and I will continue to challenge myself every single day to be the best I can be. I want these people to always be proud of me and I want to always be held accountable for my successes and failures… I own then both…
So… as Fall seems to be approaching at warp speed… I can only hope that this new year I have in front of me will be full of the best, most amazing adventures, that I will continue to be challenged and come through for myself and continue on with my happiness. I will never surrender and I will never give up on ANY of my dreams…
As I close this post… I am left to reflect on the date… 9.11.2012… 11 years since my perspective changed… I think being raised within a country that provides so much automatic freedoms we become lack-luster and maybe not appreciate everything we have available to and for us… 11 years ago that started to slowly change for me. I started to do the “stop and smell the Roses” thing much more often… I started to realize what being vulnerable meant and could mean… fear had a different set of rules… but, with time, we all start to get back to a similar routine of our daily lives… and forget… I will never ever again forget how much I have to be grateful for… this past year reminds me of the important things I hold true to myself… I don’t need all the materialistic things to be happy… this I have learned… sure it’s incredibly nice to have such things… but… truly… it’s not necessary.
I live in a very small place, actually, many might claim it as being extremely meager… yet, I have experienced more in this place I call my home then I can ever begin to acknowledge. The love, the emotions, passion and memories I have surrounding me… they will continue to inspire me and help me every single day of my journey.
I hope you all had time to breath today and smile… and just be. There IS truly so much that surrounds us that never should ever be taken for granted. Never walk by without taking that first glance… because that first glance may be all you ever get.
okay… sorry… I was getting deep… had to have my moment I suppose.
I am once again, very sorry for the delay and I hope you at least enjoyed my retrospective of my past month and my ramblings about all things ME. LOL…
I have some great ideas floating around in my head about posts I plan to create very soon… and I promise they will be much sooner then a month from now! So hang in there and thank you for reading and I hope my blog has been useful for you… If you have any suggestions of people, places, ideas or anything Esthetically pleasing… please by all means let me know! I’d be happy to share it with my world!!!
Happy Tuesday Evening everyone! Peace out!
one of my favorite quotes
so very true…
I really love this song… Jason Mraz is one of my current favs… hope you enjoy! 🙂
Thanks Again for taking the time for reading!
I hope you will have time to read… I haven’t posted in a such a long time… and I am grateful for somethings and wanted to share them here on my professional blog as well… my apologies for not being around much in the past month plus… things… well things have been oddly good and emotionally all over the place for me… I suppose that it’s okay to be that way sometimes… and I admit I allowed myself to get carried away with said feelings a bit too much… but… I think for now, at least, I am regrouped and ready to see it through… I believe and know where my heart is. 🙂
I will be posting a professional blog very soon… I have too many ideas… and I start writing and then… UGH! I seem to have said ideas storming my brain at once and I fail and then need to regroup the head… yes… it’s an excuse I suppose… but… I promise… one is in the making… REALLY! 😉
So anyways… ENJOY! and thanks for reading ME!
From my personal blog… Enjoy 🙂
and thank you for taking the time to read…
I appreciate it!
I hope you enjoy… not much… just me and my personal update… just felt like sharing with my little world…
thanks for reading me!!
let happiness shine…. you’re amazing, and the most AWESOMENESS!! 🙂
Dribble-Drabble Friday, May 18, 2012
Greetings! I haven’t written much personal on my esthetics page… so much has been happening in my “personal” life… I haven’t felt much like writing about work related problems these days or work related things… they are taking a back seat to my personal matters… I suppose that’s an appropriate thought? Perhaps?
Today was a good day. I felt the desire to share…
I worked the 9:30-6 p.m. shift today… I was only scheduled for two days this week… I sort of put my foot down and said I wouldn’t be working this weekend! You see I turn 40, and I personally didn’t want to spend the next two days… threading eyebrows, lips, and facial areas on strangers… it just didn’t seem appropriate to celebrate my big day attending to others… I have worked the majority of my past birthdays… that is when I was employed. I have only been unemployed maybe 5 total years since I was 14 years old… so… working through my birthday holiday has always been something I have done. Not this year… I am trying things differently in my life… placing myself first, trying to at least. My heart still remains a fixer, and wanting… no desiring to fix? Maybe… but be there for the ones I choose to love and desire to be near… I do feel better when I am helping others. I am learning it’s not always healthy to always be this kind of person and not think about yourself first… “Self-preservation” wasn’t something that was taught readily as I grew up… so it’s been something I am trying hard to realize. I believe I am finally coming around… “seeing the light” so to speak.
So… I have become a “big fish” in the small fish bowl… I liken to call that damn KIOSK at the mall… (I actually call it the “Fish Bowl” – because no matter where you stand, look, you cannot hide… you are always having eyes on you… from the sides, above you from the top floor of said mall… there IS no hiding) It feels good to be “loved” by so many… I suppose I can feel the self-confidence that I have built within myself… I am sure not the girl that started back in December… I am self-assured, confident in my abilities and it shows… and it feels AMAZING!!!
So just to assure all you Newbie Estheticians out in the big bad world… hang in there… just because you had a bad day… even if you are ready to rethink what you are doing with your life… take a really deep breath and believe! It will pass and your confidence will come and you will become amazing! You will find your happiness and it will show! Trust me!
I knew my lovely fun shaded hair would come in handy… LOL!!! Today it was very evident… typically, you see I tend to have a few more days scheduled during the regular work-week and therefore most of these clients that seem to want me to only mess with their hair removed can come at different times during said week… well… not this week. I had mentioned as much as I could that I would only be here Thursday and Friday this week… given yesterdays SLOW day… I had a few of my regulars, but, nothing to write home about… figured people got busy. No worries… well damn! Today… HA HA HA!!! OH MY GOODNESS!!! I showed up, to open said KIOSK, and I had 3 people already there… I had to hurry, ready myself, and get them signed in… by the time I was ready to take the first client, another 4 of my regulars came and signed in. Before 12:30 I had already seen more then 10 clients! only 3 were new! My second chair showed up… yet, that didn’t seem to change some of their minds… they still waited, patiently often times up to 30 to 40 minutes to have me thread their brows… honestly… I couldn’t have needed such a boost more then I needed today! It really helped my day go by so quickly, being so busy… but it also helped me feel happy within… that I finally “made it” — I am feeling that inner feeling that I have been trying to find. It’s such a difficult thing to describe… but… a light-bulb went off and I finally “got it”.
I am GOOD! I cannot tell you how difficult that one small sentence has always been to say… silly huh? I fear that if I “brag” about myself… that I will somehow end up showing face and manage to screw things up… sadly, this one thing… has followed me my entire life… and possibly has really messed up my personal life. I hope it can be repaired… eventually. But, I can happily say I “get it” — be proud of ones ability isn’t bragging… on the contrary… it’s confidence… something of which I have sorely had very little nearly my entire life. Never allow someone tell you you aren’t enough… Never take a back-handed compliment… only accept what you deserve!
All day I can honestly say I only had one person that didn’t tip me… which really helped… I have a small paycheck… and little cash these days. I hate getting charged tips… I get taxed on said tips… SERIOUSLY?! WTF?! I hate the fact that I get paid such a crap wage and then… I get literally half my tips swiped away from me… it sucks! And truthfully, it’s not fair…. but… then again… living in the land of the free often times isn’t so fair these days.
Towards the end of my shift… I was getting pretty dang tired and had a few moments to just breath. I had one last client… she had stopped by earlier, only wanted me, but, I was backed up, she said she’d come back, I reminded her I was done at 6 today and I wasn’t staying any later today. She showed up at 5:45…. happily she was my last client for the day and my week.
While working with her, a man walked by with a walking stick, he was sight impaired. He seemed a bit confused… but, he was working something out in his head. Finally he walked towards the KIOSK and asked where Starbucks was… meaning how to get there from the KIOSK. Okay… so I said I was confident with my threading… my work… but… dang it if I couldn’t figure out a simple way to tell this man how to get to Starbucks… SO… I did what my fixer side does… I told my client to please be patient, I asked the man how much he could see, he said “only light” so… I gave him my elbow and we took off to Starbucks… which is about 50 yard (give or take) from our KIOSK. He was telling me he was getting tired, frustrated and got “lost”, he though having a coffee would wake him up. LOL… I got him to his destination… and let me tell you… my entire day was trumped by that one simple act of kindness I did… I felt amazing… I felt lighter, happier then I have in more then 2 weeks…. He will never know just how much helping him made me feel…
It’s funny… we never realize what one small act of kindness can do to our souls… our inner spirits… regardless if he remembers me helping him… I will remember him “helping me”. I needed that today. It ended my work day so well. I was able to walk out to my truck, in the cooling sunshiny day and smile… not because everything is perfect in my life… LOL… far from it… it just helped. I needed to feel that peaceful feeling… I have missed it. I don’t find much peace these days… probably and mostly by choice, I choose to be where I am… I have been given a gift today… something I needed. I was reminded of the small choices we make… and what they can do and make for someone else…. and what they, in the end, do for us, which honestly, for me, is much bigger then anything I did for him was…
My drive home was more relaxed… even when the jerk tried to cut me off… the idiot tried to pass me on the wrong side and then was cut off by someone else… it seemed Karma may have given me a slightly ‘lighter load’ — perhaps just for the evening… but… for now… I’ll take it… just a small victory and a lovely feeling.
Just one thing that would and could make things perfect… I believe in my heart anything is possible. Do you?
Have a wonderful weekend my friends! Cheers to you all!